Hi there! Glad you found me. Some of you may know that my life is no bed of roses but in amidst the tragedy there are truly beautiful moments. I've wanted to make the best of those moments for so long, and to help me I've decided to journey back and explore what makes me feel, think and behave the way I do. Hopefully I'll begin to understand more about me and begin to find more peace

This isn't a challenge blog but if you fancy joining me on my journaling journey, I'll leave a linky so you can post your thoughts.

Here's wishing you special moments in time

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Fat n Finger Nails!

Saw this picture in a mag in the doctors surgery and just had to have it - it is so very much me.  I strive constantly to present myself well, Until lately I wouldn't go out without my face on and my nails perfectly done, despite being hugely overweight it was important that I looked right. I'd love to be chic and elegant but being the weight I am can only achieve good make up and nails. So this page is me - overweight and striving for perfection! lol

There's even the symbol of sin in there - can you spot it? - the snake winding it's way round the edge of the page.

There are lots of reasons we behave as we do, I have the healthiest diet you can imagine but when I'm stressed I reach for the chocolate. 

Addiction and compulsion is not a thing that's alien to we crafters, I bet there are many of you out there who struggle not to buy 'one more stamp' each month. 

I create artwork either on myself with my face and nails or on paper with my crafting until I'm too tired to do any more then descend into exhaustion and sit in the corner of my sofa eating chocolate.

It's not a great pattern of behavior but one I'm trying hard to change.

As always I'm going to leave a Linky as I'd love to see any pages you create, so cumon, make my day and post a page, maybe one about your compulsions.

x Michelle

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Chasing My Tail

Love this picture, purloined from the waiting room whilst waiting for Al to see the Cardiac Consultant. I take my journal with me to appts cos they often take forever and I spend so much time in one hospital or another. 

The background was made from the paint sprayed onto a stencil when making another page, just turned it over and pressed it onto another page, a little tip from the journal queen herself Dy from Heart from the Heart. Check out her pages here they're awesome!

This last week I've had two appointments with Alan, been over to Harrogate to make sure Liam is ok. He's needing so much support at the moment just to help him learn to deal with his wife's autistic tendencies, had endless telephone fights with social services, managed to grab a couple of days with Alan in the caravan (felt guilty cos I hadn't even made him a card for his birthday) dropped Alan back at home and whizzed off with the caravan to South Shields to see Richard, my other son who is in rehab and terminally ill there, then back home yesterday to start battling with social services again

The page is called chasing my tail to remind me that I don't have to run around driving myself silly doing everything for everyone! I'm in the driving seat, I can decide which road to take and how fast to drive on it!  Simple when you say it like that isnt it? Putting it into practice is another thing entirely!

Gonna have to do it though or one day soon I'm gonna crash!

I bet this story rings a bell with so many of you so if it triggers a journal page leave a link so that I can pop over and have a look
x Michelle