Hi there! Glad you found me. Some of you may know that my life is no bed of roses but in amidst the tragedy there are truly beautiful moments. I've wanted to make the best of those moments for so long, and to help me I've decided to journey back and explore what makes me feel, think and behave the way I do. Hopefully I'll begin to understand more about me and begin to find more peace

This isn't a challenge blog but if you fancy joining me on my journaling journey, I'll leave a linky so you can post your thoughts.

Here's wishing you special moments in time

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Chasing My Tail

Love this picture, purloined from the waiting room whilst waiting for Al to see the Cardiac Consultant. I take my journal with me to appts cos they often take forever and I spend so much time in one hospital or another. 

The background was made from the paint sprayed onto a stencil when making another page, just turned it over and pressed it onto another page, a little tip from the journal queen herself Dy from Heart from the Heart. Check out her pages here they're awesome!

This last week I've had two appointments with Alan, been over to Harrogate to make sure Liam is ok. He's needing so much support at the moment just to help him learn to deal with his wife's autistic tendencies, had endless telephone fights with social services, managed to grab a couple of days with Alan in the caravan (felt guilty cos I hadn't even made him a card for his birthday) dropped Alan back at home and whizzed off with the caravan to South Shields to see Richard, my other son who is in rehab and terminally ill there, then back home yesterday to start battling with social services again

The page is called chasing my tail to remind me that I don't have to run around driving myself silly doing everything for everyone! I'm in the driving seat, I can decide which road to take and how fast to drive on it!  Simple when you say it like that isnt it? Putting it into practice is another thing entirely!

Gonna have to do it though or one day soon I'm gonna crash!

I bet this story rings a bell with so many of you so if it triggers a journal page leave a link so that I can pop over and have a look
x Michelle

1 comment:

Cath Wilson said...

Oh my love - you're really having a hard time, aren't you? I have a real problem son who is ill, then ok till he screws up again - my heart goes out to you. But you obviously have a heck of a lot to deal with. I'll be thinking of you x