Hi there! Glad you found me. Some of you may know that my life is no bed of roses but in amidst the tragedy there are truly beautiful moments. I've wanted to make the best of those moments for so long, and to help me I've decided to journey back and explore what makes me feel, think and behave the way I do. Hopefully I'll begin to understand more about me and begin to find more peace

This isn't a challenge blog but if you fancy joining me on my journaling journey, I'll leave a linky so you can post your thoughts.

Here's wishing you special moments in time

Saturday, 1 March 2014

Dangerous pastimes

I guess every time we get into a car, we run the risk of being involved in a serious accident and yet we drive, never expecting it to happen to us. I've had to shut away the memory and close down my feelings around the crash but it's difficult to be selective about what you allow yourself to feel and in doing so I shut out a lot of positive emotion.
Today I felt I needed to let a little of that horror into my mind and let it touch my heart.

It's amazing how journaling enabled me to look at some pretty horrendous stuff in a gentle and compassionate way.
Tonight I've been able to sit outside my room for a short period and the suicide checks have been less frequent. Earlier today it seemed that the staff were checking me every 5 minutes. I've been checking out the room though and as suicide proof as it is, there are a few possibilities they've missed. Whilst doing my journal I did begin to explore the idea of death by paper cut!!

7 comments:

Linda Simpson said...
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Nicky Wilcox said...

Wow hun your journal work is fabulous I have read all your post my heart goes out to you. I am a new follower. love n hugs. Nicky xxx

Gay Peplow said...

Ahh Michele, even in the depths of despair your art is magnificent, keep doing what you love, it lets your inner light shine. I sincerely hope this desperate time passes and you begin to feel better, big hugs Gay xx

Kathryn said...

Hugs xx

Claire Newcombe said...

Your work is amazing, and such a natural talent.
Please focus all your thoughts and energies onto the page through your art work, I'd love to see more.
xx

anne bebbington said...

Sending much love to you my oldest and dearest friend - I am holding you in my heart and willing you positive thoughts for peace of mind and mental quiet - love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Virginia said...

Ah sweetie, another beautiful post, much love to you again, take time to heal and just be you.

Hugs