Hi there! Glad you found me. Some of you may know that my life is no bed of roses but in amidst the tragedy there are truly beautiful moments. I've wanted to make the best of those moments for so long, and to help me I've decided to journey back and explore what makes me feel, think and behave the way I do. Hopefully I'll begin to understand more about me and begin to find more peace

This isn't a challenge blog but if you fancy joining me on my journaling journey, I'll leave a linky so you can post your thoughts.

Here's wishing you special moments in time

Monday, 3 March 2014

Hearing Voices

Well I may be suffering from mental health problems but I certainly haven't been listening to the right voices. I've had so many conflicting problems to deal with for so many people, there have very definitely been too many voices in my head

In the chaos of my sons addiction issues, Liam's Down's syndrome, and my desperate need to control everything around me in an attempt to reduce the chaos in my head, I found myself manipulating those I love, and some I don't!
I failed to hear the voice inside me which is able to work out the right and good way to be and in doing so caused my nearest and dearest a great deal of pain and anxiety. Looking back now I can see so clearly that I was not myself and probably havn't been for some while.

I don't want this to be a confessional, I don't need absolution, I just need to heal myself and maybe this is where I start!

Sorry about the quality of the work, I've only got limited supplies, but those lovely ladies at Art from the Heart in Harrogate are bringing a full set of distress ink minis to the hospital for me to reduce the frustration. Can't wait!!!

Love to all
X Michelle


Debs x said...

Much love to you Michelle xxx

Linda Simpson said...

Sending you lots of hugs Michelle.
Linda xxx

Sally H said...

Hi Michelle
I have just read your last two posts. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through, but if more virtual hugs help, then have lots from me too. Hang in there, hun and take it one day at a time. Your art is breathtaking, and it sounds as though it is helping you take steps along your road to recovery, so keep at it. Big hugs xxxx

Sally x

Virginia said...

I agree with Sally your art is breathtaking, just be gentle with yourself and take your time, more virtual hugs coming your way ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))

craftimamma said...

Michelle you can do more with your very limited supplies than I can do with a craftroom full so never, ever knock your talent Lovely Lady!

I just want to send my hugs and positive wishes along with all the others. Here's hoping you start to feel better very soon.

Lesley Xx